Vanished tears. Like never before in dozens years. But the more I was shedding tears, the most I realized that such tears I never cried in my whole life. I lived more than fifteen years without being able to drop a single tear, not even if I’d liked to. Without dropping a tear for my dead grandma. Something touched me deeper than that. Alone, in a dark corner, screaming without any voice for a pain which gives no rest, a pain so deep and true that you couldn’t even feel its presence. Feeling just a sudden emptiness which causes an unstoppable desperation. Silent sufferings, desperate screams and tears entrusted to the wind. Nothing more could I have done. Nothing more I was able to do.
You lived with me almost 14 years. But it didn’t have to stop here. Not like this.
I lived so many years, and shed so many tears… But never like this. Never before.
Dude, I totally miss you
I really fucking miss you
I’m all alone,
All the time, all the timeDude, I totally miss you
The things we did together
Where have you gone?Totally miss the honesty
And special times, and honestly
I totally miss the fucked up thing ya doDude, I totally miss you
I totally miss you
Dude, I totally miss you
All the timeAhhhhhhhhhh, aaaaaah
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh, aaaaaah
aah ya-he haaa.Totally miss the honesty
And special times, and honestly
I totally miss the fucked up thing ya doDude, I totally miss you
I totally miss you
Dude, I totally miss you
All the time(Tenacious D – Dude (I Totally Miss You))
Rest in peace, Max. Even though you didn’t deserve a death like this.